my is full of sins and forgiveness but I can't forgive myself for just one problem. this problem was me and her. it could be me ,at least she have forgive me but didn't talk to me that is ok. how would u feel when that person is even want to look at u. this is how I feel, I feel like killing myself because what is the use for me to live all this while if this person doesn't want to talk to me at all. if I have kill myself, what will happen my family and my relatives. that is why I always think twice in my life. We must always think twice before doing something. Maybe this is best time to tell u how can this problem happen
  Past few years ago I was form 4 I met two beautiful girls who are form 1. One of the girls are Chinese and Indian. they are form my church. We sometime talk to each other and some time we fun together. After a few months later both of the girls ask me whether can I be their step brother, so I said can!!!. with this full responsibility I have to bring them to the right track. Telling them which is wrong and right.
   After my secondary school almost finish. me and the Chinese girl got in to a fight. because of  over protection , maybe that is y she is too uncomfortable with me but I still continue my duty to take care of them when I was in school.  every time I see her is very difficult to control my anger and want to kill her but I know that killing ppl is bad.
  My life in this world in like nothing. what can even do to continue my life without looking back. my life is just like a dust . I wish I was never born. I always ask myself y am born here in this world today and forever? Before I end this story I would like to tell to this Chinese girl who have give something that I have never get it in my whole life is just you, is who u r who bring me here and also want to thank to this Indian women who have give the strength, knowledge, her time, her advice and etc. I would like to say sorry to the Chinese girls who I have make her mad or whatever have done to u that u can't be forgive to me is..... Last but not least Thank you to both of YOU... :)